Wanting to Want

I’ve always been the type of person who needs to know why. I wrestle with questions like: Why do I feel this way? Why do things have to happen like this? Why is this the season I’m in?

This morning, after dropping off my girls at school, I decided to go on a walk. To be honest, I’ve been more of a couch-potato for years now. I often look at people who live that “gym life” and wonder why I can’t seem to find that same motivation. So as I walked, I began talking with God.

“Lord, why do I struggle to trust You? I know You’re a good, good Father… so why am I this way?”

I was reminded of a sermon I’d listened to earlier about submission — to God, and to our husbands. Yet even that stirred more questions: God, how can I submit when I don’t always see my husband fully submitted to You?

As I wrestled with these questions, God brought me to an honest place... I don’t always want the things I know are good for me. I want to want to wake up earlier. I want to want to eat healthier. I want to want to step out in faith even when I can’t see the step. I want to want to be more trusting, more social, more obedient. But the truth is, my “want to” often feels weak.

Yet God gently reminded me: “Submit yourselves therefore to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you” (James 4:7). And “My thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, declares the Lord” (Isaiah 55:8).

When I got ready this morning, I didn’t feel like going on a walk. I even put on jeans instead of workout clothes. But eventually, I just went. And that’s the lesson God pressed on my heart: Sometimes, it’s not about waiting until we feel the want. It’s about stepping into what we need... and simply doing it.

True submission means trusting God enough to act even when the feelings aren’t there yet. It’s not about understanding every “why.” It’s about obedience, about trusting that His ways are higher than ours. Even when I don’t fully “want to,” I can choose to walk in faith, knowing that obedience always produces fruit.

Prayer:

Lord, help me to submit to You in every area of my life. When I don’t feel the motivation, remind me that obedience isn’t about my emotions but about trusting Your goodness. Teach me to walk by faith, not by sight. Strengthen me to take steps—even small ones—that align me with Your will. And as I submit, let my life reflect Your love and Your wisdom. In Jesus’ name, Amen.

Worship Song:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ktXehVI8BNg